In The Movies

I think I figured out what my calling is...to be a movie star, okay, well, at least be in the movies. I began shooting an independent film on Sunday. It was such a fabulous experience. And this sounds stupid but it was so "real." Theatre is completely different in a sense...you are in a "fake" location. Sitting in the park on a cold, metal bench with graffiti all of over it, I was just "being." Of course, portraying my character, but in a different way than I do on the stage. It seemed less "made up" somehow. My senses were alive...I felt the cold, I squinted from the sun, I watched an old dog try to walk...all of these melded into my person. I felt so alive. "If we allow ourselves to accept the outer reality of where we are, then our inner reality will match it" (The Camera Smart Actor). My favorite moment of the day was walking in this graveyard, stopping on my mark by the grave stone, looking down, as the sun was just about to set. The DOP (Director of Photography) called it the magic hour. Afterwards, I was able to look in the camera at the shot...awesome. Even though they wouldn't allow me to wear any makeup (I am sick at the beginning of the movie)...I didn't mind so much because I really felt like I was this character. And when I looked into the camera at myself, I really felt like I belonged in there...and maybe someday on a big screen.